Taking two weeks off from all exercise to go on family vacation was fantastic! I loved not worrying about getting up early before the sun to get in a run or a workout. I loved not worrying about what I was eating. But I especially enjoyed all the amazing experiences I had with my family. That was what mattered the most to me.
With that being said, I have been STRUGGLING to get my groove back with my workouts and my healthy eating.
I have been finding it hard to wake up early for my training runs during the week and especially on the weekends. Even weightlifting, which I am totally getting into lately, has been a struggle. Part of that struggle has to do with marathon training. I am feeling totally overwhelmed by it. With EJ starting football and the potential for me to have more work responsibilities, it is going to be a challenge fitting in all my running. I am trying to make running a priority right now and get my training runs done before I do any lifting, and I think that is part of what is bugging me. Don’t get me wrong, I love to run, I’m just not as crazy about running these long distances as I was last year at this time. I am really thinking that this is going to be my last marathon for awhile. At least until the kids are older, maybe. It’s very early in my training and I am already kinda losing my love of running. And this worries me, a lot. But I am going to stick with it and do my best. I signed up for this race in November and I intend to finish it.
I am feeling very overwhelmed with my summer to-do list, training, going back to school soon, and the fact that I can’t seem to wake up early. I can, I just find excuses to lay in bed. I need to quit that. I think getting back into my old routine of being up super early will help relieve some of my anxiety about all the things I have to do or want to do. That way I will have more time to get them done.
So why on earth am I telling you all of this??? Because I am human and I struggle. I am not always the girl with the smile on her face that loves every minute of running or lifting. I have days where all of it sucks and I don’t want to do it and I want to sit and drink coffee and eat donuts all day. I am real and I want to be real with you. I do not ever want you to think that I am perfect and have it all together. I do not. Most days I do not. Most days I fly by the seat of my pants, making last minute decisions. As much as I like to plan everything and make sure everything is in order. It’s not and I am learning to be ok with that.
This much I know. I am taking it one day at a time, one run at a time, one workout at a time. I will finish my marathon training to the best of my ability. I will continue to weightlift as much as I can listening to my body. I will put 100% into my job at work and at home (most of the time, LOL). I will cross that finish line in November to complete my third marathon. I don’t even care if it’s a PR or not. I just want to finish. Then I have big plans for my weightlifting!! More on that another time.
So be YOU. Do what YOU want to do. Do YOUR best. YOU have got this, whatever that may be. YOU are amazing. YOU are loved. YOU have a purpose. YOU are not an accident. YOU are here for a reason.
Stay Positive and BE YOU!
Love,
Laura
This is me today after my workouts. They were good and I feel good about them, even though I slept in.
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