Here's how the week went down. Read on for more of my ramblings!!
Sun: 10 mile run outside
Mon: back, biceps and deadlifts; 3 mile treadmill run; core (ball situps)
Tues: 6 mile treadmill run; 2 mile treadmill run; core (ball situps)
Wed: Legs; Dance Party at Maddie’s school; 4 mile outdoor run
Thurs: 5 mile treadmill run
Fri: chest, shoulders, triceps, biceps, and deadlifts
Sat: 10 mile outdoor run; core (ball situps)
Sunday I ran outside once again. It was cold at only 22 degrees, but boy did it feel good to get out there. I can’t believe how much of a difference there is between the treadmill and the open road. My knees have been hurting the past 2 days after running outside. I guess my legs were getting used to running on the cushy treadmill. I have also been running pretty slow on the treadmill for the most part, whereas, today I pushed it to run a little faster outside. I saw some other runners out and that always makes me want to run faster. I really should run with people more often. I always push myself when I am with other people. I am a member of some running groups on facebook. I always follow when people are posting about meeting up to run. I just need to do it more often and quit making excuses. I always worry that everyone is faster than me but I can usually keep up with someone out there. I thought about heading out with a running group on Saturday morning, but I talked myself out of it again. I have been in a real funk this week. Not with my workouts. They have actually been on point and I have been getting up in time to get them done, plus get extra in. These have dramatically increased my mood. I don’t know what I would be like without working out.
I don’t know what is wrong with me this week. Actually it’s been going on for a couple weeks. I just feel so crabby all the time. I’m snapping at my kids. I’m not as happy as I usually am at work. I am complaining all the time about something. I think I have seasonal depression. I really do. When I look back at last year at this time. I was pretty much the same. I remember being crabby and running A LOT! The gloomy weather and not being able to get outside to run every day really makes it hard to feel happy. I am glad that I have been able to get out on the weekends and occasionally throughout the week. I know that running on the treadmill at night has been helping. I know it has also brought on some pain in my knee. I am trying to take it easy so that my knee doesn’t hurt too bad. After this Saturday’s run, it hurts more than it has all week. I’m still hoping to run on Sunday, but we’ll see how I feel in the morning. Anyway, I am trying to be more conscious of my crabbiness and trying to be positive. It’s really hard. I am just not happy. I have more stress at work and am being asked to do more things. It’s actually what I really want to do, but I am having a hard time enjoying it when I just feel so blah! I am hoping to keep running at night even if it is slow and only a couple miles. I know it makes me happy and I will feel better about myself when I am done. I need to find more positive things to do and be happy about.
I am going to try my best to be positive and try to keep smiling. I think now that I realize that I may have this problem, now I can try to consciously counteract it with exercise and try to change my attitude when I feel myself getting crabby. I can walk away and take a breather when I am feeling extra frustrated with the kids. I know this is only during the winter months that I feel like this. I know it will go away as soon as I am able to get outside more and the temps start to creep up again. It will get better.
I know my run this Saturday really helped my mood. The sun was out and for almost 2 hours I was able to soak in some much needed vitamin d! It felt amazing. Here’s to hoping that I can manage my self-diagnosed seasonal depression. I don’t want to go on medication for this. I don’t think it’s that bad. I think I just need to be conscious of it and find other healthy ways to deal with it. One thing that I am super thankful for is running. Because without it, I would be turning to food. I know that’s what I used to do. At least now with running, I turn to that instead of food. I still like my sweets but I am totally addicted to dark chocolate, which is not something that I would have eaten before becoming healthier. I used to love all my things milk chocolate. At least now there is less of it in my house and I know that if I eat dark chocolate it is not as bad for me as other things that I could be eating.
So there are my ramblings for the week. Thank you for reading. Tune in next week to see if my mood has improved! One thing I know for sure is I am a
and it has completely changed my life!!
Run on!!!!
Laura
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